What do you want to be?

I want to be a good role model for my kids. I want them to know what love looks like and sounds like. I want to be a good help mate for my husband. I want to be a support and a confidant for him. I want to be a faithful friend who will tell you the truth even when it hurts.

All of these are good and I believe they are very important. But more than all of these I want to be on fire for Jesus. I want to be consumed by Him. I want to be His close friend. Ready to move and walk with Him wherever He leads. It's all about Him. This life is all about our relationship with the Creator of the universe. He loves us so much it is mind boggling! He gave His only Son for me. And for you. So we can be with Him in glory for eternity. Because He has done so much for me I want to give Him my life.

But, when I am not careful to guard my heart and I let my guard down there are moments in my life when I loose sight of Him. In that moment of complacency  I loose sight of what really matters. In that moment my eyes are not fixed on the author and finisher of my faith, but are focused on things that will not matter in eternity. Then I am tempted with thoughts of selfishness and not being satisfied.

In Revelation 3:15-16, Jesus says, "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth."  

The lukewarm state feels really yucky. Believe me, I know. I come to the realization that I have idols in my life. I have allowed things or people or the latest update on facebook to become my focus and I drift for the moment from what I was made for.

I find that I am a messed up, pitiful, selfish person when I try to do life without Jesus. Life is soo much better and more satisfying when I do life with Him.

I was made for God and His purposes. I was made for love. I was made for more.

Thank you, God for saving me from selfishness and a lukewarm heart. You are always so faithful to forgive me. Thank you for your peace that surpasses all understanding. Nothing compares with your presence. Thank you that you are still working on me and you promise to never give up on me.

"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6